My time under
To say I have my own narrative is to say that I have my own life and that I am living it. There is so many times in my life that I felt like everything was going out of control. It wasn’t the happiest time of my life, but I guess I could say that I learned life couldn’t be fully controlled.
It happened just recently. I was put in a position where I had to take so much responsibility in my organization, and I wasn’t used to it. I had to reschedule everything. I had to be in school everyday than the usual. I had to empower or get my team up and running after a lot of disagreements and silent looks. It wasn’t pretty. I was left with a dying organization. Other than the internal problems, I also needed to answer from authorities that demanded so much from a newbie. I felt like I was at the bottom even though I had a high position. People kept on pushing and pulling me from every direction. I felt I was exploited, objectified, subordinated, and oppressed at the same time. It felt as though everyone was testing me, because I was new.
I think a radical form of resistance is not the answer to my problems. Right now my strategy is keeping everyone around me at bay and not letting anyone close enough to hurt me. My plan for my organization is to empower my team by giving them the freedom to do the activities they want to do. My plan for the people pushing and pulling me is giving them what they want and proving them wrong.
I don’t know if my strategy will work but I’m trying hard to keep everyone happy. Being dominated or being marginalized is not fun, but I have to accept that it is a part of my life.
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